Stream of Consciousness on Intimacy and Comfort
I can muster the courage to do almost anything, but this one thing… I need help. I need someone to guide me through this level of intimacy. I can’t do it on my own because I’ve never experienced it, and I don’t know where to begin. Feigning comfort is usually much easier than this. If it’s only up to me, I may never get past it. My life is so full, but this one roadblock is distracting me from the completeness I could feel. I’ve had sex, but it was only sex. Sex with people I didn’t and still don’t really know. Sometimes my friends ask me for my perspective on their sex lives, and I’ve reassured a few close friends many times that sex is not to be feared or shameful or overly revered. I tell them that sex should make both people feel good about where they are, who they’re with, and how they are. Sex is not the be-all, end-all of love or intimacy or happiness, but it can be used to express all of those things. I tell them that there is no shame in asking for what you want, or in asking what the other person wants from you. I want to take my own advice! I just can’t accept that someone would want to be with me once they know me. It’s not that I don’t have confidence - I do. But how can I believe that someone would really find me worth having when I’ve never experienced that before? All the confidence and self-affirmation in the world can’t fabricate external admiration.
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Edit My Essay
I am applying for admission to the Culinary Nutrition/Food Science BA program at my university. The application requires a brief statement explaining why I want to be in the program and what I will do with my degree. There aren’t many people in my life to whom I trust to read my writing because I am very self-conscious. I also worry that one stupid essay will impact someone’s overall opinion of me, my intelligence, and my potential. So, would all of you kind strangers please read this and give me some constructive criticism? Of course, tell me it’s awful if you think it’s awful! I can take it in this context. But please be honest and please be instructive when necessary.
Thank you all,
Application for Admission to the College of Culinary Nutrition
Food is fascinating, but I do not want to be a chef. I know that the thankless business of the foodservice industry will not be satisfying enough. I don’t just want to make food, I want to understand food and use that understanding to do something interesting, productive, and valuable. A degree in Culinary Nutrition with a concentration in Food Science is the logical next step toward this goal. No, I do not know exactly what I want to do with this degree, but of all the things I’ve studied, the function of food in the body is one of the most fascinating. I know that am exponentially more apt to succeed in a field I find interesting. My background as a dancer – with little to no nutritional guidance – has shown me the great need for accessible nutrition education for child and teen athletes (and non-athletes, for that matter). If I were made to decide right now exactly how I would utilize this degree, I would say that I want to teach young people how to use food to fuel their bodies to maximize their own potential. I love dance, and if I had the means I would have loved to be a dancer; working with young dancers or a professional company as a nutritional advisor would keep me in the dance world that I so adore.
There is so much I do not know about Food Science or the careers derived therefrom, but I am hoping that viable career options will become apparent to me as I further my education in Culinary Nutrition. I really think I will be good at this, and I want the chance to prove it.
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I feel envious all the time! A new movie is coming out that I know will be phenomenal, and I’m more upset that I’m not in it than I am excited to see it. I see beautiful choreography and I HATE that I had no part in it’s conception. I eat heart wrenchingly good food and think “I’ll never be able to create something like this”. How can such negativity become motivation? I want to be better, but I don’t know how.